An update:
I haven't made any resolutions but instead got a tattoo<----extreme, never. I got a willow tree on my forearm and yes I do know it's permanent but please do not judge. I've been thinking about this for about 3 years but specifically the last few months. This willow tree represents flexibility, adaptation, and sorrow. The way it drapes down looks like tears fallen to the ground, it's a sign of humility and despair- that represented my year.
I have struggled with depression most of my life but now I've come to an acceptance. Because of this, it has inhibit close relationships. As some of you may know, I'm extremely private. I will tell you about my emotions or my day but will not tell you the root or cause. And because of this, it has caused isolation and failure to face my fears and mistakes. So new year resolution? to take time each day and try to really look at myself and see these ugly beast of fear, anger, regret as a fruit that I have to slowly peel away to reach the tangible flavor.
Here is to another year
Carlisle
